Sunday, January 31, 2010

Because, i said so.

Its strange how my titles to all my blogs, have no relativity to anything that’s contained in the actual blog itself; I guess I just like gathering several words together, and following them with a giant section of my mind… But anyways, getting on,

Life lately has been somewhat, different.. Experimental you could say, but defiantly, worth every second. Its really changed, and Im almost certain that this time its actually for the better. Im not digging myself a dark hole to sink deeper and deeper in, with every word spoken. This time, it’s a new time, new chance, and new feeling.

I’d like to Abrogate a major section of my past, and replace the time gap with new, adventurous memories.. but I guess the past is all we know, and all we’ll ever know. The present tense is sometimes even something we don’t completely understand, but then again, can you really ever, truly, completely understand anything?

I had a major addubitation, that nothing in my life could possibly turn around, despite how hard I tried.. but things really have, and I wouldn’t ask to change them unnaturally even if I got the chance. You see, I’ve finally started to actually, truly realise the meaning of life, isn’t set in stone, nor written to follow. YOUR meaning of life, is created by no one, but indeed, yourself. Your life, is your history, your personality, and your love.. or maybe for some, even your biggest abhorrence. Which ever way, you choose to live your life, is the meaning you choose to put behind it.

I can still admit, I’d love to sometimes absquatulate from this town, but my escape plan has somewhat changed, dramatically. You see, this time, I don’t think I could leave alone.. Theres to many people, that i would hate to say goodbye to.

I’d like to make an affidavit, that this life I live, will never be given up on.
And I’d like to think, you’d make the same, conformation.

Ps: think about your life meaning, even if it takes your entire life to put words to, it’ll be worth it.
JCR


This photo, has nothing to do with anything, i just like it, so i thought i'd do the honors and share it with you, follow reader.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

see if i care;

i want to leave this world with my soul spilling of poems upon poems. my lugs filled with cigarette smoke & residue from words of wisdom & brilliance.. My heart radiating with unconditional love, & forever graced with scars that have been forgiven.
please forgive me, for all my wrong.
please love me, for all i've become.
JCR,